No way! I cannot believe I am making this post right now. I have spent the last several years trying to log into this blog but have been unsuccessful, obviously. I managed to forget the email account associated with this blog and the password, and never thought I would have access to it ever again. I even created a new blog in an attempt to start over, but I never posted on it. I just couldn't find it in me to give up on this one.
Tonight I just so happened to stumble across a document on my computer that randomly had an email address on it. I recognized the email address but knew I hadn't used it in a long time. I decided to try using it and a random password in the log in section of Blogger and it worked! Here I am! I am so excited and so grateful, I can seriously cry right now.
So much has happened the last 3 years since my last post and it's something I need to post about. I have wanted to document my journey from these last 3 years, but since I was unable to log into my blog, I never really did. Not even in a personal journal. I talked to close friends and family here and there but I still feel like I harbored my true feelings and emotions. I never wrote my feelings down or got everything out which has always been very therapeutic for me in the past. The thoughts and emotions I felt over the last few years just kind of festered and although I feel I have healed, sometimes I still feel a little part of me hasn't and this may be the route I need to take heal completely. And, who knows, maybe someone out there will stumble across these next couple of posts, who may be in the same position I was in a few years ago, feeling hopeless and scared, and maybe they will find my story helpful. Whatever the case, I need to do this for me. You're welcome to read along if you'd like. :)
-Amanda
